Another Scar

Yep. Another one to add to my ever growing collection on my body, as if I don't have enuff already.

Was just looking at my hand and I noticed that there was a red mark left by the ciggy-burn I got from Hennessy Artistry a couple of weeks back.

Thank you beeyatch for being such a noob fag-ger that you don't even know how to hold your fag properly so that it doesn't prove hazardous to people walking by. Now I have a souvenir to remember you by, wtf...

It's kinda in the shape of a heart though...if you look at it closely...and stretch the skin a little...and maybe tilt it a bit...

Black Friday

A history of my eff-ing crappy day:

• Went to office and found out that my colleague was emo-ing at me. Ignored me for most of the day. Fine whatever, she probably needs me more than I need her anyway.

• Had a headache. Must be caused by my stupid contact lenses which I probably should have changed like about a month ago, but I ran out of supply and I just didn't have the time to stock up (or more like I just couldn't be bothered at the moment).

• After lunch, my tummy decided to throw tantrums. It felt like it was trying to drill its way out of my body.

• Ms Perfectionist me dug my own grave with the stupid Excel spreadsheet I was working on. I just HAD to be so dissatisfied with the formatting and I just HAD to go and change it. And we're talking about 1K-plus of data here! Imagine merging and centering data in more than 1K of rows. Nearly vomitted blood I tell you. That cost me an extra hour and a half at the office. It would have been more bearable if Microsoft had just created a stupid keyboard shortcut for the stupid 'Merge and Center' function.

• Left office, went to my car and found out that it got clamped. The day I decided to drive is the day that the guards decided to check parking tickets in the area where I parked. Bye-bye RM50.

• On the way to Lern's house for dinner, had a fight with my sister. She made me detour to Puchong to feed her dumb dogs. And she didn't even ask, she COMMANDED me to go. She's probably out partying with her friends now.
  

• Nearly had an accident because was SMS-fighting with sister while driving.

• Was late to Lern's house for dinner.

• On the way there, Lern said he was done with his training. If I hadn't made that detour to Puchong, I would have made it in time to pick him up. But now since I was stuck in the jam, his dad had to go pick him up instead. Damn pai seh.
  

So? Crappy or not, you tell me? You tell me???!!!!

And I can predict that it is not over yet. Still have to go home and face stupid sister.

Where Was My Christmas???!!!

I'm still kinda stuck in year 2008, and I think I know why...

Where the freaking hell did my Christmas go???!!!

Where was my Christmas gift shopping escapades at shopping malls decorated with huge Christmas trees and playing jingle-ly Christmas songs? I know where that went...I was busy in Penang with singing practice, until Christmas Eve...

Where were my crazy, zany, funny Christmas parties with Santa hats and cute reindeer antler headbands? Oh ya, busy in Penang, couldn't make it for pre-Christmas celebrations....

Where were my Christmas pressies all nicely gift wrapped and tied with a huge ribbon? Wait, Edeleen gave me one pressie that was gift wrapped, no ribbon, but still gift wrapped...and....and........THAT's IT!!! People, is it so hard to gift wrap a present???!!! Not like I don't like the presents that I received, but so 'tak syiok' only, getting a present all naked like that...I was up at 6am in the morning to wrap presents even after a long train ride home from Penang ok...!

So now it doesn't feel like I've even celebrated Christmas at all. And Christmas is a pretty important celebration for me...I don't know why, but it just is, so sue me...

New new year's resolution for 2009...make bloody hell sure you really celebrate Christmas properly this year, even if you have to ram Santa hats and reindeer headbands on people's heads and make them sing Christmas carols. Heck, I might even turn into the Christmas Nazi and whip some asses to keep that resolution.

L.O.V.E.

Love.

Comes with a price tag?

To some people, they look at it from $ point of view. How much money to spend to buy something for a loved one; how much money to spend to make a loved one happy; how much money to spend to make a loved one shut up.

To others, they see it from another point of view. What are they giving up emotionally for a loved one; what dreams are they letting go of for a loved one; what thoughts and insecurities they are shutting up inside for a loved one.

It's true...it's hard to maintain a relationship.

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart." - Helen Keller

"I'd like to run away from you, But if you didn't come and find me - I would die." - Dame Shirley Bassey

Stuff that gets on my nerves

I find it irritating when people make different plans with different people on the same day and time. I mean, sure, I know you want a backup plan just in case one of your plans don't work out, but at least have the decency to let the other person know that you are making other plans as well. What happens when both the people you are making plans with all can make it? So which one do you choose?

I find it irritating that people make appointments and promises with you, and all is set, then in the next instant agree to go out with someone else at the same time. Like WTH!

I also find it irritating that people make you promises that they'll do something for you but then show no enthusiasm or indication that they will follow through with it. I think I'll much prefer it if you didn't make me any promises at all...keeps the disappointment rate down.

Malaysia Today, blocked...?

I read on The Star online that the government has issued an order to block the website Malaysia Today, whose editor is the infamous Raja Petra Kamaruddin. So I decided to check it out if it was true.

Guess what? I could still access the site. Was wondering why...Did someone botch the job up? Was the plan put hold? Or was the order retracted completely? Then I read CincauAaron's post...it was mostly geek talk but I got the gist of why I could still access Malaysia Today. Maybe it was due to the fact that I was on my college's wireless and not TMNet. Not really sure though...couldn't put the theory to the test coz I couldn't connect to Streamyx.

Personally, I don't read Malaysia Today, but this whole blocking order thing is such a load of crap. Like, hello...they have a different opinion than you and therefore you want to censor it?Whatever happened to zero Internet consorship? Whatever happened to freedom of speech?

The same goes for the recent Bar Council forum on the conversion to Islam. The forum was forced to end early because of the demonstrators outside the Bar Council building (which was a private premise by the way...). So that whole episode demonstrated the rule of the mob. As long as you rally enough people, you will get your way, even though how unlawful it is.

Like, come on...It's not like the forum were condemning any religion or anything like that, but it was to discuss the plight of people who were caught in between when someone converts. This are relevant issues that should be discussed, not just swept under the carpet!

Sigh, I seriously don't know where this country is headed. I'm not pro-government nor pro-opposition, I think they both have their own issues to deal with...but I think the recent support for Pakatan Rakyat could be a good thing, because now Barisan Nasional is forced to get out of their comfort zone and start listening to the rakyat; what the rakyat wants and needs, not what BN wants and needs. Hopefully, things will start to change for the better.

So in the next General Election, which way should I cast my vote? I'm still not sure...but I have around 4 more years to decide right? So political people/parties out there, you have that much or little (depends on how you look at it) time to prove yourself to me and the rakyat.



Wow, a post about Malaysia Today turned out to be a rant-y post about Malaysian politics...Sorry, couldn't keep it bottled up anymore.

Caught!

After 29 days, the police have finally found the car. And caught the stupid asshole who stole it. Hope he rots in prison for a very, very long time.

Don't think can recover any of the other stuff that was stolen though....haih....

Hope that stupid asshole kena raped in prison also. >:(

Violation

What was supposed to be a family night out turned out to be a harrowing experience. The sight of that ajar gate was the first inkling I had that my night was going to be hellish. I could practically feel the blood draining from my face at that moment. But I had to be strong for my mum and not give in to the avalanche of emotions yet. There were other important things to see to, and I guess the shock hadn't quite set in yet.

It was only the following night, after I wasn't with my mum anymore that the full shock of it all finally hit me. After all, I didn't have anything to distract me from thinking bout it anymore. Your home should be the one place that you can feel safe and secure, but a single act of greed on the part of strangers can take that all away from you. How do you explain that feeling of violation, of knowing that strangers had trespassed on what was yours, of knowing that they went through your personal things? I had already gone through the experience once before, which was more terrifying because I was actually there when it all took place, and it took me ages to actually get back some semblance of security. For it to happen to me again, this should be enough to put me in a state of paranoia.

What is our society becoming? Some feel so proud of their gated communities with 24-hour security guards, saying that it is a symbol of a civilised society, but in actuality, to live in fear so much that you require around the clock protection, this is a sign of a degradation of civilisation. In today's time, everyone learns to be mistrustful of their fellow man. Even a sincere act of kindness is looked upon with suspicion nowadays.

We can never let our children out to play because of the fear of paedophiles, we can't walk down the road at night without being afraid of anything that moves...heck, we can't even feel safe in our own homes anymore. We keep adding bars, and grills, and locks, all in the hope that it will make us more secure. And soon, all of us will be living in prisons built by ourselves.

Silence of the "friends"

The Situation:

Late Thursday night/Early Friday morning - Food poisoning. Feeling so crappy but still trying to finish my assignment. Finally can't take it anymore, threw up at 4am and went to sleep (or at least, tried to...)

Friday, 11am - Finally finished my assignment. Tummy still feeling queasy so still contemplating if I should go out later tonight. Will see later.

Friday, 5pm - After taking all kinds of medicine for food poisoning and some rest later, was feeling better. Tummy still feels like it's set on 'Slow Spin' but it was manageable. So decided to go tonight. Hey, it's so hard to get this bunch of people together, so I couldn't miss it right? Anyway, earlier on the people who asked me to go used the "We all friends go out just to enjoy together" trump card. Ok, told Emily I would be going but won't be opening bottle because I won't be drinking (drinking on a recently poisoned tummy??? I'm not suicidal you know....).

Friday, mamak, 10pm - Nicholas and Carles were collecting money for the bottles and I repeated again that I'm not opening with them.

Friday, at the club - Went in and sat down at the table. Later AaronL called and said he would be coming and wanted to open bottle with our table. Told Carles about it and he said "You telling me for what?!" in a most rude like manner. Erm, aren't you the one handling all the details???!! So ok, I told AaronL it would be better if he opened with his other friends who were at the club as well. Went to dance downstairs and most of the time I was at AaronL and Joseph's table. Didn't drink a single drop that night, not even the coke from my table.

Friday, mamak, after the club - Two groups of people from the club were there; one group from my table, the other group from Joseph's and AaronL's table. I was seated at one end with my own group and the other group were seated at the other end. Stanley came. Nicholas called him over to where he was sitting and they started talking. Then suddenly Stanley shouted at me "You! Come here I want to talk to you!" and Emily, who was sitting opposite Nicholas, was crying. What the hell is up la? Ok, went over to another table and sat down. Nicholas come also. Then Stanley started shouting at stuff like "What's wrong with you???!!! Why you don't want to pay??!!!", "This is the second time you are not paying", "You so cheapskate isit???!!!" and all his crap bout if you want to club for free then ask your father to open a club, bla bla bla.....Then I told them la, why should I pay for the bottle if I didn't even drink? And Nicholas started saying stuff like it's not fair to the other two girls who didn't drink also but paid, and that other people also think it's not fair. Then I said it's up to them la if they wanna pay, but I refuse to pay for something which I didn't even partake in. Then Nicholas said if you enter a club and sit down at the table then you have to pay, even if you don't drink. Continued arguing until I cannot tahan Stanley shouting at me anymore and bringing up the "second time you didn't pay" issue so I shouted back at him that the first time it was my birthday and they all belanja me, I didn't make them pay for me. Argue, argue, then Nicholas said "Well the solution now is that I 'pau' for the other two girls as well". Then he just got up and left. So ok, went back to the group and I told Joseph what just happened. My group all were having a discussion among themselves bout what just happened. So I just stayed at Joseph's side of the table la. Then later my group all just got up and left. No one came to even talk to me except maybe Keith who came and said bye. I was supposed to go home with Tuan Shen but I guess he forgot bout me too and walked away with them. So I got up and started to follow them but Jospeh told me that he'll send me home. But then my stuff was all at Tuan Shen car, so no choice, I had to follow him. At that same time I think Tuan Shen finally remembered me and came back to get me. So followed him home lor. It was the most uncomfortable ride home ever. There was this kind of uneasy silence between us, the only time we talked was when deciding which way to take home.

The Rant

1. The payment. I've already told them in advance that I wouldn't be opening bottle with them. And in the beginning, when Carles asked me to go, he said ladies don't have to pay. That was his exact words, "When clubbing, ladies don't have to pay". Maybe he meant don't have to pay for entrance, fine. So what's the problem now? I only did what you promised me, I got in the club without paying. I didn't even drink a single drop of your alcohol or coke, so why are you asking me to pay now? Then when we were arguing at the mamak, let's call it the Let's Intimidate Stephanie Session (LISS), I asked him "Did you pay anything to get me in the door?", he replied "NO, but blablabla....". Now, let's focus on the "NO". If you didn't pay anything to get me in, why should I be asked to pay anything now??? It's not like you rugi anything....And that stupid thing bout paying just for sitting down at your table, pay RM60 just because I put my ass on the couch??!!!! You've got to be kidding!!! And some more they wait until AFTER the club then only tell you that they expect you to pay. It's like saying "Surprise!!! You owe RM60 for sitting down. Now pay up.". If I knew they were gonna expect me to pay just for bringing me in I wouldn't have gone, or I would have asked Joseph to bring me in.

2. The LISS. Wow, two guys ganging up on one lone girl. So macho hor, so man hor....Stanley's not part of our group of friends. He's just Emily's boyfriend. He wasn't even at the club. He just came to pick Emily up. So why the hell did he stick his nose into something that had nothing to do with him anyway??? And yelling at me in front of the whole mamak like some wannabe gangster some more. You call yourself a man, yelling at a girl like that?? Ya, CAVEman la.....And Nicholas, wow, that one even more special, ask a guy who had nothing to do with the issue to help you bully a girl. Some more he can say "I dunno how to talk to you because I'm not close to you". Ya, so you go and call your gangster wannabe to be your backup la...Such a spineless worm. A piece of advice, GROW SOME BALLS!!!

3. The other girls paying. Hey, if you wanna cheat those girls who hardly club into paying for YOUR drinks, then shame on you! Celine only drank coke, which Nicholas said was free flow for him. So in other words, you are making her pay for YOUR drinking! Those of you who expects me to pay for YOUR drinking, even though I didnt even drink a drop, SHAME ON YOU. And let's do some math here ok?

RM60 x 3 girls who didn't drink / at least 18 people who were drinking = extra RM10 each person

Hey, extra RM10 for your own drinking and you are complaining??? And then you wanna call me cheapskate???!!! If you don't wanna pay the extra money, then stop opening more bottles!!! Stop drinking!!! Don't go and expect me to pay for what you drank then whine when I don't pay up.

4. The silence. The thing that hurt me the most was when not one person from my group stood up for me. No one said "Hey, why is this guy shouting at my friend?", no one came over during the LISS to ask "What's going on? Why are you two guys ganging up on a girl?". Some of them can get so worried bout a strange guy looking at another one of our girl friends, but no one was worried bout a guy shouting at me. And when I went back to the table, no one even came and offered me a kind look or word. No one came and supported me. No one asked me how I was. No one. It was like they all shunned me. And here I thought I had friends. I've always stuck up for them and comforted them when they were sad, but now, none of them have done that for me.

Well congratulations, you have managed to do what no one outside of my family has ever done. You have managed to be my undoing. You have managed to make me cry. Thank god Wawa replied my sms that day. He was the one comforting me at 5.45 am, even though he didn't even know what was going on because I still haven't told him what was wrong.

Up until today, no one from that night has called or sms-ed me to ask if I was ok. How wonderful is that?

Why la...???!!!

I just found out that tomorrow Carrefour and Tesco are gonna sell the latest Harry Potter book at RM69.90....Like, WTF???!!! *bangs head against wall* JJ kept on showing me the ad in the papers summore =_="....First he showed me the Tesco ad....then he pointed out the Carrefour ad on another page....Babi, dah la kena stab, knife kena twisted summore.....*bangs head against wall again*

Are you or aren't you?

You know, I've noticed that foreign guys (FG) are more aggressive when they are chasing after a girl. He'll often call and sms her, and ask her out especially on weekends. He gets her little things and say "Just saw that and thought about you...". Whenever he's going out to a party or gonna hang out with friends, he thinks "Hmm, I wonder if she'll be interested in joining?" and proceeds to ask her along, and won't take no for an answer, even if it means he'll have to drive to the other end of the state just to pick her up.

For her birthday or Valentine's Day, he does something sweet and special for her to make it a memorable day. He gives her little compliments like "You look really nice today" to brighten up her day. He'll sneak out of class to accompany her when she's sitting all by herself.

With FGs, you can almost always tell when he likes you. On the other hand, local guys (LG) chase after a girl in such a lowkey way that sometimes the girl is left wondering "Is he into me? Or is he just treating me like a friend? Is he interested in taking our friendship further?". Furtive looks are the most lowkey tactic. I mean, it's okay if a girl does it, but come on guys, have some balls and just approach her la...(I'm old fashioned that way; guys should approach the girl first)

LG: *furtive look* OMG she's looking here!!! *look away*
Girl: Was he just looking at me??? OMG, does he like me *swoon*??? Hmm, but it was just a look, maybe I'm thinking too much.

And if LG doesn't ever approach her, this will probably go on till either
a) the girl losses interest in LG
b) they graduate and never see one another again OR
c) she gets herself another boyfriend *knife through LG's heart*

Either way, LG doesn't get the girl.

I'm not trying to say that all LGs are like that (some can be really sweet and romantic too), or that FGs are better than LGs...but it would be nice if more LGs were more straight forward when they are going after a girl. Seriously, girls would really appreciate it....I know I would.

Emo, emo, emo...

Been staying up really late these few days weeks, all because of this stupid Taiwanese show on Astro AEC that I'm watching ('It Started With A Kiss', seriously not recommending this to anyone). Stupid, stupid show...the girl is so weird looking, the guy is not even that good looking, but somehow I just can't help myself! I'm a sucker for those 'girl meets guy, girl likes guy, guy sort of likes her but doesn't wanna show it' kinda shows. And I wasn't even planning to watch it! When you put a remote control in a bored TV addict's hands, shit happens.

And OMFG, the female lead character is so irritating. It's like she's so tak malu when it comes to chasing the guy. And her tactics not like to say works also. Makes her look so pathetic (cringe-in-mortification kind of pathetic)....The show airs at 9 pm but I usually have to catch the rerun at 2.30 am coz I'm watching my Chinese show on Wah Lai Toi at that time (can you say 'TV addict'???).

So now I'm going to classes looking like a zombie, hardly acknowledging anyone, and giving monosyllabic replies. Just excuse me when I'm emo-ing there by myself, it's nothing personal...Don't go and silently emo me back ya...

I still luv you guys...MUAX!!!

Rant #2

1. Bloody freaking headache is having a bloody freaking rave in my head.
2. SissyDear's bf is an ass.
3. I'm so sleepy that I'm daydreaming that I'm sleeping.
4. SissyDear's bf is an ass.
5. Stupid Taiwan show which has been keeping me up is so stupid, but I can't stop watching. I can't help myself!
6. SissyDear's bf is an ass.
7. I have to go to college early morning tomorrow. Cannot sleep in...crap!
8. SissyDear's bf is an ass.
9. Headache just graduated to a mini migraine. Getting its diploma now.
10. Did I mention that SissyDear's bf is an ass??? Oh, I did...Well, he is...

Weird maid

Today seriously not my day la. Class ended at 6 and I thought of going to BigSissy's place to take a nap while waiting to pick SissyDear up. Went there, rang the bell, waited, but no one opened the door. Rang the bell again, waited again, but still nothing. Repeat a few times then got fed up and decided to call BigSissy's handphone. WTF, never pick up the phone pulak. By then it had started to rain already. Tried the bell a few more times and in the end gave up and went back to the car. Then drove back to college. Sohai, waste my time only. BigSissy couldn't have brought the maid out rite? If she had, she would have told me. Aiya, that maid also got a bit of problem 1 la...The other day SissyDear came to pick me up, rang the bell a few times but the maid didn't open the door. I was upstairs and wondering why the maid still haven't opened the door. I thought maybe the maid busy or something, so I went out of the room to look. I saw the maid running towards the door, but when she heard the room door open she just froze there. She stood there doing nothing for a while. When I came downstairs, she turned to me and said "Oh, Kak Irina ke?". Like duh, go and check it out lah if you don't know who is at the door. For what stand there doing nothing while the bell rings? Haih...

Bad, bad Malaysian attitude

I went to University Hospital to collect my medication today. I always dread a visit there, not because I'm afraid of doctors or needles or anything like that, but because of the traffic. UH's traffic system sucks, and today, it was worse than usual. At the main entrance, there will usually be 2 lanes, 1 for dropping off and picking up, and the other for normal traffic. For the life of me, I cannot figure out why some people refuse to go to the drop off lane when they want to let people down from the car. They'll stop right smack in the middle of the normal traffic lane...So damn bloody inconsiderate! And the people they let off are usually elderly people, and people who need crutches or a wheelchair, so they take damn freaking long to get out of the car, creating a massive jam that stretches all the way outside the hospital grounds.

So jam jam jam until finally, I clear that area. Then bloody hell, get stuck in another jam, this time caused by the cars going into the parking area! UH's traffic system sucks even more here. The place is SO sempit, and most of the time it's only a 1 lane road. Then these stupid kiasu people just have to go so damn freaking slow, trying to find a spot in the first few levels. It's like die die HAVE to find a spot at 1st or 2nd floor. Eh, hello! Upstairs still got belambak of parking space la! And then some people, even when they know someone is waiting for their parking spot, they'll still take their own sweet time getting into the car and reversing out of the parking spot. ARGH!!! $!#$&*!#$%#$@ Finally managed to get to the 4th floor and parked my car. So many parking spaces! Dunno why those idiots turning around in circles downstairs.


Went to the main tower and wanted to get an elevator to the 2nd floor. And I came across another seriously fucked up Malaysian attitude. Some people simply don't have the courtesy to wait for others to alight from the elevator before getting in. They insist on pushing their way in even though the people inside are trying to get out. And this elevator I wanted to take wasn't one of the normal sized elevators you normally see. This elevator's opening was like less than the width of 2 people standing side by side, so you can imagine how sempit it was, and they still want to push their way in. Sohai.


Finally got to the pharmacy place and lined up to get a number. Enter bad Malaysian attitude number I-Dunno-Wat. This elderly lady just came up to my line and wanted to cut queue. It was like the Hitz.FM's JJ and Rudy ad about cutting queue, "put signal, act like dunno, act like dunno!" Hey, I don't mind letting elderly people go first, but at least have the decency to ask before cutting queue la...Can say "Excuse me, Ah Girl, but PoPo very old already, legs very painful, cannot line up so long. Can I go first ah?". But no, this old lady just buat tak tau and wanted to cut queue. Celaka, who willing to let la like that? So I also buat tak tau and inched closer to the front. Sooner or later she got the message that I wasn't gonna let her cut and she went to another line. So exasperating!

Everytime I go to the hospital sure my blood pressure sky-rockets wan...but what to do, have to go also. Haih...

Private posting = cannot

Sigh...I just found out that Blogger doesn't provide password protecting for posts. I can only make my WHOLE blog private, but not 1 particular post.

This. Sucks.

So now I whenever I have something private to blog about, I have to go to my other private blog...so 'ma fan'. ARGH! Why can't Blogger just provide the stupid damn bloody setting??!!!

Big Huge Rant #1

I was unceremoniously fired from my post as Head of Administration of my Technical Assistant Team in my college!!! And I had to find that out from Bari...not my boss, CHC himself, but Bari. Bari was just letting me know that I was no longer holding my post (he doesn't have the authority to fire me anyway). CHC couldn't even have the decency to tell me know in person. I had to find out from a third party. Show some respect lah! In an organisation, if you release someone from their post also you'll let them know face to face right? Or at least send them some notification.

Before this, last week, I was reading through the minutes of the Technical Assistant's General Meeting (I wasn't present that day), and it said that 2 other people had volunteered for the post of Admin Head and Assistant. Okay, fine...I decided that I was just going to buat tak tau because the proper procedure for electing a new Board Member was to call a Board Member's meeting and discuss potential candidates first, then only decide. But this was not done, so I decided to just keep quiet about it and see if anyone approches me to inform me about any new changes. No one did. Then today Bari came and told me that the 2 people who volunteered are to become the new Admin Head and Assistant. Like, WTF???!!! Then he said that CHC was not happy with the performance of all the existing Board Members, so they are all let go of their posts. What the friggin' hell...??!!! Not happy with my performance??!! Eh, hello! I just joined the Admin Department early this year (and that was as an Assistant), and I was only promoted to Admin Head 2 or 3 months ago!!! So how the hell can you say that you are not satisfied with my performance???!!! I haven't even really had a chance to really prove myself in the Admin Dept yet!

According to Bari, CHC was really upset about the condition of the team now, especially after the new batch of trainees. Apparently, the team is not performing up to expectations. Well, if he was so upset about it, why did he let all of the trainees into the team in the first place? Fix the existing problems first before you go recruiting new people la...you know some of the seniors' knowledge about running the lab is not that good, so what do you expect them to teach the new trainess? Surely all the information passed on will also be incorrect right? So how would you expect this new batch of trainees to excel? And the thing is, why is all this reshuffling happening now only? After the return of KimmyS (big boss) to the T&I department? Previously, CHC was really laid back about the running of the lab...but after the big boss came back, apparently CHC was under pressure about the team, then he started taking it out on us and saying that he is very unhappy about the condition and wanna change the way we work and blablabla.....Like, why didn't you do this sooner? Why wait so long until the condition is so bad and you're receiving flak from the upper levels then only you wanna do something about it? Now it's just creating a lot of discontent among the TAs (me anyway).

I'm still so pissed that I was just removed from my post without so much as a by-your-leave. As if I don't deserve some measure of respect. When I first came to my post I did everything that CHC asked me to do. He said that we're going to be audited by ISO and we need to standardize our forms...ok, I went and got all of it done. Now all the new forms are up and in use. He also asked me to help think of a solution for the problem of missing cash...ok, solution found and implemented. So what the hell do you mean that I haven't been performing my duties? And the thing is, I'm the only person doing all the Admin work. Do you know how much paperwork that entails?! Who do you think I am? Superwoman? Not only am I not shown some appreciation, I am not even accorded some common courtesy. And it's not like I'm being paid any extra wage for being the Admin Head. I get what any other normal TA does, but I have more workload.

Now, after being unceremoniously fired like that, I'm still expected to go back and train the new Admin Head and Assistant on the administration procedures. HAH!!! Fat chance! After the way I was treated, do they REALLY think that I would be willing to waste my time training the new Board Members?

Sensitivity

I have been asked before why I hang out more with boys. I guess it's because guys are not as sensitive and 'siu hei' as girls. I'm more comfortable around them because I don't always have to REALLY watch what I say around them. They won't get easily offended when people tease them. Some girls tend to nitpick and look for hidden meanings inside a joke, even though there are none. Hey, I tease people, and I don't mind if people tease me back...no harm done....Haha, ok, very funny.....If I really am offended, I'll tell them to their face that I don't like it. Unlike a FRIEND of mine, X...

You see, it was just a little harmless teasing and it wasn't meant to be mean or anything. But maybe X is a little over-sensitive and for some reason, she felt that I was dissing her...Seriously, I wasn't...!!! And the thing is, if she was offended, she didn't say anything to me....Instead, she pretended that everything was fine and then proceeded to diss ME in her blog the next day. She didn't put my name but she knows that I read her blog....Like, what's up with that???!!! Well, now I'm returning the favour...though, I'm not really dissing her like how she dissed me....

So now, lesson learnt:

• Watch what you say around girls.

• Think it through before you tease girls. In fact, maybe I shouldn't even think about doing it, in case anyone of them has got 'siu che pei hei'.

• Don't assume that you know your friends. They might surprise you one day with the things they do.