Black Friday

A history of my eff-ing crappy day:

• Went to office and found out that my colleague was emo-ing at me. Ignored me for most of the day. Fine whatever, she probably needs me more than I need her anyway.

• Had a headache. Must be caused by my stupid contact lenses which I probably should have changed like about a month ago, but I ran out of supply and I just didn't have the time to stock up (or more like I just couldn't be bothered at the moment).

• After lunch, my tummy decided to throw tantrums. It felt like it was trying to drill its way out of my body.

• Ms Perfectionist me dug my own grave with the stupid Excel spreadsheet I was working on. I just HAD to be so dissatisfied with the formatting and I just HAD to go and change it. And we're talking about 1K-plus of data here! Imagine merging and centering data in more than 1K of rows. Nearly vomitted blood I tell you. That cost me an extra hour and a half at the office. It would have been more bearable if Microsoft had just created a stupid keyboard shortcut for the stupid 'Merge and Center' function.

• Left office, went to my car and found out that it got clamped. The day I decided to drive is the day that the guards decided to check parking tickets in the area where I parked. Bye-bye RM50.

• On the way to Lern's house for dinner, had a fight with my sister. She made me detour to Puchong to feed her dumb dogs. And she didn't even ask, she COMMANDED me to go. She's probably out partying with her friends now.
  

• Nearly had an accident because was SMS-fighting with sister while driving.

• Was late to Lern's house for dinner.

• On the way there, Lern said he was done with his training. If I hadn't made that detour to Puchong, I would have made it in time to pick him up. But now since I was stuck in the jam, his dad had to go pick him up instead. Damn pai seh.
  

So? Crappy or not, you tell me? You tell me???!!!!

And I can predict that it is not over yet. Still have to go home and face stupid sister.

Babedevil Must Die

I don't know what's been happening to me lately. I seem to be losing my memory (of people anyway). I'll meet someone new, spend some time with them, and then totally forget who they are the next time I meet them. Take for example:

Case 1

Scene: CincauAaron's birthday/Thomas's New Year's Eve party

I walked through the door, went to the dining table and said hi to everyone. Saw a guy wearing a black shirt. "Hmm, looks very familiar", I thought. "Must be some blogger whose blog I stumbled upon once."

Walked to the kithen and was getting some food, when from behind me I heard someone say, "Hello, Steph."

*turns around* *blink blink* "Hiiii......?"
"Sigh, You don't remember me isit?"
"Errr.....Ermmm.......*stares blankly*"
"Andrew...?"
*blink blink* "Think dammit!"
"Petaling Street......?"
*blink blink blink*
"I was shooting there with Aaron.......?"
"OHHHHHHHH!!!!! ANDREW!!!!! Omigawd, I'm so sorry!!!! I KNEW you look familiar just now!!!! So SORRY!!!"
"Hahaha...it's ok."

And I spent the next few minutes apologising profusely. Sigh. Dunno where to put my face adi...


Case 2 (even worse than above-mentioned case)

Scene: Absolute Bazaar at Subang Jaya

Was walking around looking at some clothes when I felt a tap on my shoulder from behind.

*turns around*
"Hi Steph!"
"Errrr....Hiii....."
"It's me, Suzzane!"
*puzzled smile*
"Aaron's girlfriend...?"
"Aaron??? Which Aaron??? Low? This girl looks different from his girlfriend one??? Ho? Got girlfriend meh?????!!!! Errrrrr....."
"Sara's brother, Aaron.....?"
"OHHHH!!!!! YAA!!!!! HIIII!!!! Hahahaha!"

Then I decided to dig my grave even deeper.

"Sorry la...couldn't recognize you. We've met only once before, at Sara's birthday party."
"Actually we met before that already!"
"Die.....We did???"
"Ya, at the barbeque at Sara's place....?"
"Omigosh, oh ya!!! Totally forgot about that! I'm so sorry!"
"Hahahaha....It's ok"

We continued some small talk until I couldn't tahan the embarrasment anymore and I said bye. Then I practically ran back to Lern to wail and tell him about my blond-ish moment.

And the fella laughed at me. WTF right.... -_-''



To all the people out there who have gotten this from me before, I'm so, so, soooooo sorry!!! I seriously don't mean it! *gives cookie*

Photo Love

Stumbled upon this quote while I was reading yesterday's papers.

"....you know a guy loves a woman when he cannot stop taking photos of her..." - Ekachai

Turns out I'm not the only one who agrees with that statement.

I Already Have Them

I had a dream last night. It wasn't a particularly nice dream. In fact it bordered on being a nightmare for me. I guess it was because I've been harboring this fear that I wouldn't be accepted as well as others have been.

Wanting affirmation from others is just like wanting the sun to rise in the West instead of the East; pointless and unnecessary. Getting new friends is always a nice thing, but even if they don't accept you into their circle, it's not the end of the world. I have my own friends now who accept me as I am.

Having a special connection with a new friend, that that makes you get along so well together that you can almost finish each other's sentences, is not so important, as I already have that with my existing friends.

After much thought and consideration, I'm letting go of all the wanting and needing. I've decided that it's just a waste of my precious time; time that could be better spent with loved ones. If people want to accept me into their inner circle and be close to me, then that's fine; but even if they don't want to, it's still acceptable to me. Because I know I already have friends who will be there for me (and takes the time to read my blog and Facebook to find out what's been happening in my life :) ).

So to all my friends out there, know that you really ARE appreciated.

*hugs*

P.S. Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! May you prosper and all your wishes come true.

Cincau Must Die

The other day, CincauAaron asked me a funny thing.

"err...wanted to ask very long de...did you tell ---- and ---- what present to buy for me ar?"
"no wor"
"coz the present they gave me....*shows me pic*...that tshirt...u ingat tak?"

Bugger, you know what happened? The dumdum actually thought that the present I gave him was from someone else! Ish...I was actually out shopping with him when he saw that shirt, just that the outlet didn't have his size anymore. So I decided to go to another outlet to get it for him for his birthday. Mana tau that guy so blur blur that he mistook my present for someone else's. Hmph! It was even wrongly tagged in Facebook. :s

"ahem...u better retag de pic"

Cincau, I could have killed you then....

*****

On another note, thanks Aaron for cheering me up with your 'lutsinaaarr'....

Thanks Grace-y for your webbie session.

Thanks guys for being there for me. :)

The End.

I wish there was at least a question mark at the end of the title. But as it is, there's just a period.

So I guess this will be my last MOTH.

It's weird. I don't seem to be feeling anything. In fact, I seem to be totally numb. Maybe coz this seems so surreal.

I didn't even see it coming. Woke up this morning and everything was fine. Then I was just blindsided.

The other party doesn't seem to care either. Maybe things is as it should be.

Maybe I was just looking for a reason, to see if things could survive a thunderstorm.

I guess it couldn't...

My Secret Key

I have a key
I use it from time to time
To visit old friends
That have always been mine

Try as I may
I can never let them go
But keeping them around
Hurts me so

And so I have a key
I use it from time to time
I say 'hi' and I may cry
Hoping things will get better in time

And when I'm done
I put my key
In a secret place
No one knows but me

Where Was My Christmas???!!!

I'm still kinda stuck in year 2008, and I think I know why...

Where the freaking hell did my Christmas go???!!!

Where was my Christmas gift shopping escapades at shopping malls decorated with huge Christmas trees and playing jingle-ly Christmas songs? I know where that went...I was busy in Penang with singing practice, until Christmas Eve...

Where were my crazy, zany, funny Christmas parties with Santa hats and cute reindeer antler headbands? Oh ya, busy in Penang, couldn't make it for pre-Christmas celebrations....

Where were my Christmas pressies all nicely gift wrapped and tied with a huge ribbon? Wait, Edeleen gave me one pressie that was gift wrapped, no ribbon, but still gift wrapped...and....and........THAT's IT!!! People, is it so hard to gift wrap a present???!!! Not like I don't like the presents that I received, but so 'tak syiok' only, getting a present all naked like that...I was up at 6am in the morning to wrap presents even after a long train ride home from Penang ok...!

So now it doesn't feel like I've even celebrated Christmas at all. And Christmas is a pretty important celebration for me...I don't know why, but it just is, so sue me...

New new year's resolution for 2009...make bloody hell sure you really celebrate Christmas properly this year, even if you have to ram Santa hats and reindeer headbands on people's heads and make them sing Christmas carols. Heck, I might even turn into the Christmas Nazi and whip some asses to keep that resolution.