I Already Have Them

I had a dream last night. It wasn't a particularly nice dream. In fact it bordered on being a nightmare for me. I guess it was because I've been harboring this fear that I wouldn't be accepted as well as others have been.

Wanting affirmation from others is just like wanting the sun to rise in the West instead of the East; pointless and unnecessary. Getting new friends is always a nice thing, but even if they don't accept you into their circle, it's not the end of the world. I have my own friends now who accept me as I am.

Having a special connection with a new friend, that that makes you get along so well together that you can almost finish each other's sentences, is not so important, as I already have that with my existing friends.

After much thought and consideration, I'm letting go of all the wanting and needing. I've decided that it's just a waste of my precious time; time that could be better spent with loved ones. If people want to accept me into their inner circle and be close to me, then that's fine; but even if they don't want to, it's still acceptable to me. Because I know I already have friends who will be there for me (and takes the time to read my blog and Facebook to find out what's been happening in my life :) ).

So to all my friends out there, know that you really ARE appreciated.

*hugs*

P.S. Happy Chinese New Year Everyone! May you prosper and all your wishes come true.

Cincau Must Die

The other day, CincauAaron asked me a funny thing.

"err...wanted to ask very long de...did you tell ---- and ---- what present to buy for me ar?"
"no wor"
"coz the present they gave me....*shows me pic*...that tshirt...u ingat tak?"

Bugger, you know what happened? The dumdum actually thought that the present I gave him was from someone else! Ish...I was actually out shopping with him when he saw that shirt, just that the outlet didn't have his size anymore. So I decided to go to another outlet to get it for him for his birthday. Mana tau that guy so blur blur that he mistook my present for someone else's. Hmph! It was even wrongly tagged in Facebook. :s

"ahem...u better retag de pic"

Cincau, I could have killed you then....

*****

On another note, thanks Aaron for cheering me up with your 'lutsinaaarr'....

Thanks Grace-y for your webbie session.

Thanks guys for being there for me. :)

SummerSplash yang tak jadi...

Just got back from Sunway Pyramid. Went for the Roxy SummerSplash thingy (tickets courtesy of Cincau), but in the end guess what??? Didn't even manage to get in!!! The line was like, freaking long!!! Imagine the distance from Putra LRT ticketing counter at Masjid Jamek to the Star LRT ticketing counter on the other side of the road, and back again....that was how long the queue was!!! Couldn't even get through to Cincau's phone. That time it was around 12-something pm, the event was supposed to start at 1pm only, so SingingMan, Coffee, SorryWrongNumber and I decided to come back later and maybe the line wouldn't be so long....

So we went walking around Sunway Pyramid. Checked out some cameras and finally, ended up whiling the time away at MPH, but they had limited choices of books there so got kinda bored after a while. Nearly 3pm, we decided to go and try our luck again...WTF, went there and saw that the line was even longer than before...!!! Ok, forget bout it, dun wanna go in adi...So, in the end we went to J.Co to hang out....haih...wore my swimsuit for nothing....I kinda hate crowds btw...the only time I would line up with all those crazy people like that is when there is a super huge and great rave....yeah baby!

Nearly 4pm, I was starting to panic adi. Was supposed to go home with Cincau coz I have to be back at Bkt Jalil by 5pm coz got family dinner later, but still couldn't get hold of him. How now???!! Finally he messaged SorryWrongNumber saying that he was at Carl's Jr with his friends. Oh, thank god! Went there to meet up with him, and he was eating this thingy that had fries with meat sauce all over it....OMFG!!! It was so GOOD!!! Or maybe it was just my hungry tummy talking...but seriously, it was good!!!

Finally, Cincau finished his food (with lots of help from me... XD) and we left...But as usual, Cincau misplaced his car again... -_-" Reached home at 5.15pm, and BigSissy said she wants to leave for UncleKC's place adi, which is like now!!! Omg!!! Pack, pack, pack!!!

The EP

Aural Joint's EP is finally out! You can get it from band members (if you know them personally, of course, like me...!!!) or you can e-mail your request to them at info@auraljoint.com

Oh, and their official website is out too....So, further info about the band, upcoming songs, albums, etc can be found here. Another thing, those of you who prefers MP3s, they're also available for sale at Aural Joint's website.

Aural Joint

Latest updates on Aural Joint!!! They now have a new website here. I guess this will be their home till their official, official website is up and running. They have added their new songs too, so go and have a listen. Hey, maybe some big shot music producer will stumble across their MySpace page and offer them a record deal like they did our very own Che'Nelle.

Good luck Aural Joint!!!

Memories *sniff*

I was just going through all my old Friendster testimonials. They made me laugh, then I felt like cyring. Some testimonials were from my old school mates, some of whom I haven't been in touch with for quite a while. Reading what they wrote for me made me remember the good times we had. I wonder what happened to us...we were such close friends, but somehow we just sort of drifted apart. We probably just got caught up in our busy lives, made new friends and just didn't keep in touch with the old ones. I guess life can be a bitch sometimes. Well, excuse me while I go and make some calls...

Support Aural Joint!

Aural Joint (previously known as Andronicus) is WeeWee's baby...he's damn proud of it (duh, who wouldn't be proud of their baby...) and he should be coz it ROCKS! Their album is coming out soon in early August (hopefully), so wait for it! Currently they have completed 2 songs...they both sound really good, but my personal favourite is 'Fall'.

Their instrumental version of 'Someonelse' is also the soundtrack for a movie in the Singapore Film Fest. Wah, don't pray pray ah....

They have seriously improved since their Andronicus days. Now they sound as good as those other Malaysian rock bands who are already receiving a lot of airplay on radios. WeeWee, when you are super-duper famous adi, dun forget me ah...!

UVNation Pt 2

Ok, continuation:

Quite empty when we got in...duh, still bright so de vampires not out yet...

Things finally picked up n every1 started dancing. Dat time DJ Desire was on de decks. She played quite a good set, but I can't really dance 2 Tech-House n Techno 4 very long (I'm more of an R&B person), so we headed over to Urban Room. But they weren't playing R&B yet, so we just sat at the side for a while. Hung around just enjoying de music, then we went 2 get drinks. N you know de damn bloody fucking thing???!!! We were supposed 2 get coupons n redeem those for drinks, but WTH, there was only like 1 girl there selling the coupons. Eh, hello....this is an event where an estimated 20k people are supposed 2 attend, n you only station 1 girl there to sell coupons???!!! *grumble grumble* *push push* Finally got de coupons for our drinks. Went 2 de bar n I heard some people saying that there was no more beer. Like, WTF??!! It was only 10 or 11 sumthin n you guys ran out of beer??!!! Then de girl behind de counter said that de beer is on de way, but it won't be cold. Double WTF!!! Who likes 2 drink warm beer???!!! Talk about poor planning...couldn't de organisers anticipate the crowd size n sufficiently prepare enough drinks??? Luckily, my vodka sprite was still available, thank god! Cool bartender gave me equal parts of vodka n sprite. Usually they only give 1/4 liquour n de rest mixer. Luv you man!!! Drank up n was feeling REAL good. So I dragged de rest of de gang back on de dance floor. Benny Benassi finally came on with lots of fireworks (like, real, exploding, colourful fireworks) but we could only hear it. And de damn malu thing was, right after he came on and all that fireworks display, technical error pulak. I'm not sure whose fault it is la, but I don't think it was Benny's. WAKAKAKA, you have an international DJ coming 2 Malaysia n your equipment crashes??? Oh, so damn memalukan. Poor Benny....haha....they finally got it fixed, Benny played, every1 happy. Oh, n I sort of seriously, m not 2 say really absolutely positively have fond feelings for shufflers. One, they hog de whole dance floor. Two, they can practically dance all nite, ergo they hog de dance space de whole nite. Three, you can't flirt dance with a shuffler, so you can never pick up any cute shuffler guys. Four, they stomp, not step, STOMP on other people's feet. Bloody assholes....I have bruises all over my feet already.

Main arena when DJ Desire was spinning

This was at Urban "Room", I think...

Alex De Ghost!!! EEEEEKK!!!

Met a couple of people dat nite. Nick, StanTM's fren; Jasper; Marcus, his gf Junee Foo (who turned out 2 b StanTM's 'khai mui', small world), Syami, Gigi, n Edwin (I think I saw Gary too); Point Blanc, dat 'Ipoh Mali' guy (I didn't even know who he was at 1st, until EmilyBoo mentioned dat song *blush*. I took a pic with him!);

Me and Point (mind u, it was taken rite b4 we left n I was all sweaty from all dat dancing)

n OMFG, I saw Ooi Yee Ker also!!! Haven't seen her since secondary school. Didn't talk 2 her though, she was working 4 de event n was very busy.

We finally left about 1 sumthin, went 2 Jasima at TTDI for 'yum cha'. Heard EmilyBoo ordering Indomee Double. Haven't eaten dinner yet n haven't ordered a double before so I ordered dat too, thinking dat it was just cooked using 2 packets like I do at home (well, I use 1 1/2, but I can't say "Boss, Indomee satu setengah" can I??? Then heard Celine ordering Indomee with 'telur mata lembu'. Huh??? Telur mata LEMBU???!!! Alex: "Mata KERBAU isit???". Me, Celine, Alex n the fella taking our orders started laughing. WAHAHAHA...dat was good! Then my Indomee came...Like, huh??? Wat on earth is this?? It was just noodles fried with cabbage, some meat n egg, n it was like loaded with pepper. I thought Indomee goreng is supposed 2 be Indomee instant noodles with a fried egg on top???!!! Yer...so not nice...I only ate like 1/4 of it n gave de rest to CincauAaron n EmilyBoo. N it cost me RM7...yer, such an unsatisfying dinner/supper. Went home, n started on 'UVNation Pt 1' post. THE END!

My ticket stub n wrist tag

P.S. I missed Benny Benassi's hit track Satisfaction! Crap! I was waiting de whole nite for it summore... :(
P.P.S. I heard dat they ran out of water at de rave at 1am....isn't dat kinda like, dangerous??? Oh, those poor clubbers...

*pics "filched" from Celine, EmilyBoo n CincauAaron...Sigh, de 1st ever time dat I post pics on my blog, it had 2 be of clubbing....

UVNation Pt 1

Ok, I'm gonna keep this post as short as possible coz it's freakin 3am in de mornin n I'm damn freakin tired. Just got back from UVNation n after-party-yum-cha-session, n now I'm blogging while removing my makeup so dat later I can just jump into bed n snore till tmr today morn afternoon evening. Ok, here's wat happened:

Got 2 1U at around 4pm. Parked at B2 Rainforest. Ok cool, we're (was with CincauAaron n Celine) in de rite zone coz I hav 2 collect my tickets at 4th floor Rainforest. Walked up like damn freakin banyak escalators. "Y on earth didn't we take de elevator?!" Finally, reached 3rd floor, saw tables with "Ticketing Area" signs. Eh? I tot I was supposed 2 go up 2 4th floor? Ok watever, went n asked de lady at de table for my tix, n she said come back in half an hour. Babi, walked all de way up so fast 4 nothing. Then walked all de way 2 old wing to find Starbucks coz we din know if there was 1 in new wing. Ordered our drinks (my Banana JavaChip was damn bloody sweet) n sat there till like 5 sumthin. EmilyBoo was still waiting 4 StanTheMan 2 pick her up. So we went back up 2 collect my tix. ~ok this is seriously taking 2 long~

Collected tix, went window shopping, went back up at 6 sumthin, started lining up 2 get in. EmilyBoo still not here yet. Poor girl, they're gonna b stuck in de huge massive jam outside 1U. Finally got in at 7 sumthin. Security asked 2 check my IC. Wah, I look so young ah??? *blush* Went 2 main arena, not many ppl there yet. Me n Celine needed 2 go pee pee again real bad n we didn't wanna use de portable loos, so we went back down 2 de shopping complex. did our business n went back into de dance arena. Finally EmilyBoo, StanTheMan n Alex joined us. Babi, they wore white! Forgot bout de UV lights thingy....Jalan here, jalan there, n was just standing around like orang bodoh, coz who de hell parties when it's still light outside???!!! ~fuck it, dis is taking 2 long...I'll continue tmr or sumthin, gonna go snooze now~

Confessions

Recently, I ACCIDENTLY found myself in one of my friend's Friendster inbox. And I ACCIDENTLY read one of his mails....it was kinda sensitive in nature. I was feeling so guilty while reading that mail, but I just couldn't stop myself (I have no willpower). After reading it, I was so wracked with guilt. Couldn't sleep for many nights. In the end, I decided to fess up. Over the next few days, I was creating scenarios in my head of the best ways to confess...and all of my scenarios ended badly. So by now I was a little freaked out about telling him. Needless to say, I chickened out. No need to tell him lah....what he doesn't know won't kill him, right....??? That settled it....*guilty, guilty*

Then when I was walking to class today, I saw him sitting on the bench. I thought to myself, He's alone now, if you wanna tell him you better do it now.....it's now or never....*conscience giving me a nudge* So I went and sat down beside him.

"Let's say right, if your friend ACCIDENTLY stumbled into your email account, and read a very sensitive mail.....that person knows that it's wrong and feels very guilty while reading it, but just couldn't stop reading....would you forgive that person if you found out about it? Or would you be so angry that the friendship would be ruined forever?"
"Err...if other people, then I guess they would be angry lah....but if it was me, just angry for a while then forget about it loh....So whose mail did you read?"
*innocent face* "Did I say that the person was me? Someone else could have read MY mail...."
"Oh....So whose mail did you read?"
Shit!! Quick! Evasive measures! "I'm not talking bout me! It's just a rhetorical question!"
"Ah....So whose mail did you read?"
Sigh, might as well tell him....."Ok, it's your's..."
"Uh-huh........."
"No, really....I read ur mail...You know there was once you didn't log out of your Friendster....I sort of found myself in your inbox............"
*silence* *me freaking out now*
"----, are you very angry.....???"
"Which mail did you read?"
"You know the one where --------------------- (*censored*)"
"Oh that one..." *suddenly smiles* "So now you know, just don't tell anyone else lah...."
"You really not angry ah?"
"No lah"
"You sure a not? You don't bluff me ah....I scared until my legs like jelly already...."
"Not angry lah....don't worry" *still smiling, thank god!* "I'm going to class now. Bye"

Then he got up and left. But I still had to sit down because my legs were like jelly, and i didn't think that they would support me if i had stood up then. Was so scared that I felt like crapping in my pants...